When I became a mother, I began imagining what my boys’ lives would be like.  I immediately desired everything amazing; but also knew that life is not without hardships and that each of them would have plenty of trials.  I knew that some of these trials would also be my trial and I would grieve for them and/or with them.  Bean and Keegs were healthy babies overall, they did come down with the occasional bug, but their first year of life was pretty uneventful.  When I took them in for their 12-month check-up; the pediatrician asked me how I thought their development was going.  It was then I asked her…